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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

The N Word

My husband has officially banned the ‘N’ word from our house. He cannot stand to hear me say the word ‘nausea’ anymore! More specifically, he said that it actually grates on his nerves to hear me talk about being nauseous. Now, Brian is probably the most patient and understanding person I’ve ever met (he puts up with me, after all!), so it’s very telling when something actually bothers him. He’s asked me to substitute synonyms like queasy. It’s funny to me, though, because I’ve been living with it for so many months that I don’t even notice how often I’m talking about it. Now that it’s been brought to my attention I’m much more aware. And, I really do promise that I aspire to one day submit months worth of blog postings without once mentioning being sick during pregnancy! However, at this point in time, it really is what consumes my life. The hyperemesis controls everything that I do, that I try to do, and that I want to do. Quite honestly, it just sucks. To make matters worse, after having a relatively decent month of August, I feel like this week has been one big backtracking step. The ‘queasiness’ has most definitely reclaimed it’s authority on my life. Friends and family continue to warn us with the proverbial “just wait” advice about parenthood, but I have to say that I think Brian and I are actually looking forward to sleep deprivation and the other frenzied experiences that come home from the hospital with a newborn. I’ve even found myself longing for the pain of labor and delivery! It might be brutal, but it will also mark the end of being sick day in and day out for weeks and months at a time. We love our little Avery so much already, and we definitely don’t want her to make her arrival too early. But, I think we will all breathe a sigh of relief when the ‘N’ word is no longer part of our daily, casual conversation.

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