Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I'm going on a trip ...

Remember that game we played on road trips as kids …

I’m going on a trip and I’m taking with me an apple. Then the next person goes and has to remember everything that was taken before their turn … I’m going on a trip and I’m taking with me an apple, a banana, a can of worms ….

This is kind of how I feel right now. I’m packing for this conference. I will be gone for little more than 48 hours, and I’m taking the Entire. Contents. Of my Closet. Seriously, I’m taking …

One pair of black pants
One pair of brown pants
Two pairs of jeans
At least 6 tops
Three pairs of boots
Two pairs of heels
Highly contemplating packing a pair of maternity jeans that I haven’t worn in many weeks (you know, just in case … wth?)

Should I go on? Because, the list does go on. Really, it’s pathetic. I think it’s the result of one of two things. One – it’s possible that I’m just too lazy busy to try on these outfits to see what actually fits, so I’m waiting until I get there to do that. Two – I’m using clothes and shoes to replace the guilt/fear/ gigantic lump in my throat over leaving Baby.

I’m guessing it’s probably Option Three though – a combination of both One and Two.

I WANT to go to this conference. I really do. I haven’t seen my boss in over a year, and I adore her. I have several friends in town that I will get to see for the first time since Baby was born. There will be great opportunities to expense drink awesome coffee and wine and eat fabulous food. And, SLEEP. Through the night.

BUT. But, I keep running excuses through my head to get out of it. Maybe Husband hasn’t recovered from the flu and I can’t leave him alone to deal with Baby. Maybe I caught the flu myself. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

The truth is that I’m going. And, I’m going to have a great time, do great business, and be back before Baby spits up again. Okay, probably not given her Olympian aspirations, but you know what I mean. I just have to give myself these options in order to mentally avoid prepare to …. GULP … leave her for the first time.

3 comments:

  1. Try to enjoy yourself!

    I'm still going to bootcamp this weekend, even though I feel guilty leaving dh home with our boys, knowing he just wants some rest this weekend.

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  2. TRY IT ON!!!! You do not want to get out there and say "oh shit....I hate the way this looks." I did that. :( It could be an excuse for shopping, but mission-shopping sucks. My vote is...try it on. And enjoy yourself. :)

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  3. Try to enjoy yourself! Once you have that first glass of wine, you will think "ahh, this is fun!" It's so important to get away without your little one!!

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