January 2011 - Baby Steps in High Heels

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Leaving

7:27 PM 7
Leaving
Leavin’ on a jet plane …

That song always comes into my head when I have a trip, even when I don’t have to fly. And, since I take a lot of trips, I find that song playing in my head quite often. It’s always bittersweet, and I almost always try to change the words (Leavin’ on a jet plan … but soon I will be back again). If I don’t change the words, I am doomed to tears. Okay, well, tears are probably guaranteed either way.

Pathetic, I know, but it’s hard to leave Baby behind. Even for Jamaica.

That’s right, the day has come … vacation. And, I’m …

Leavin’ on a jet plane.

Leaving my computer (aka, my office) behind.

Leaving my boots and coats and scarves at home.

Leaving my cell phone turned off.

Leaving laundry, dishes and diapers to others for a few days.

Leaving all alarm clocks disabled.

Leaving my child in loving and capable hands.

Even so, I’m also leaving a piece of my heart (and a bit of my sanity) with her.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Blog-cation

9:08 AM 8
Blog-cation
I’m going on a blog-cation, of sorts. Between a business trip to San Diego next week and a vacation the following, I’ve got entire books of Baby Instructions to write in the coming days.

So, while I’m not ruling out blog posts all together, I’m also not very confident that I’ll get around to it very often … because, you know, I also have a full time job, which apparently requires my presence and attention from time to time.

Then there’s the parenting. And the being a wife. And lots of other things I’ll be compressing into the 5-day window in which I’ll actually be seeing my child over the next two weeks.

Yes, I’m using sarcasm as a coping mechanism.

No, I’m not ungrateful for a vacation. Just bummed to be away from Baby so much in such a short period of time (especially since my traveling season for work picks up next month).

I’m hoping to at least stave off an entire I-miss-my-child-and-she’s-probably-going-to-start-walking-any-day-now-but-probably-on-a-day-that-I’m-not-home meltdown until I’m sitting on a Jamaican beach three sheets to the wind …

Husband, if you’re reading this, I hear that the Sandals resorts offer BOTH five-star spas AND jewelry stores. Just sayin’ …

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Resolutions?

9:40 AM 4
Resolutions?
Resolutions seem to have invaded the blogosphere. Everyone is sharing their goals, their hopes, their dreams for the coming year. But I’ve resisted.

Why? Perhaps because there are so many things I want to do or change or experience in the coming year that it’s hard to put it all into words. The simple stuff that I know will come anyway – surviving sippy cup wars and table food battles. The more complex and emotional goals of being a better, more present/focused mother and wife.

There are hundreds of tiny goals that revolve around motherhood and life in general. How could I really condense it all into a simple New Year’s Resolution?

Truth be told, I’ve never really been one for making resolutions. I rank them right up there with ‘starting the diet/exercise regiment/etc. on Monday’ plans.

They’re good in theory, but there is rarely long term follow through. At least not in my world. I do better to make a plan, implement it in a realistic time frame in my life, and just see how it goes.

I don’t meant to be a drag, and I certainly wish everyone the best with their own resolutions. I just have a different sort of plan.

I’m going to try monthly objectives. Starting fresh every month with a new goal or objective, something to focus on and incorporate into my life ... hopefully on a long term basis.

The way I see it … if I do fail, it should at least feel less disappointing come week 4 of the month as opposed to that sinking feeling we all get in November when we realize that an entire year has gone by without success. [I write this paragraph mostly tongue in cheek, but with a bit of sincerity, too.]

The objectives will have multiple parts, a kind of ‘eat, pray, love’ approach, if you will. Or mind, body, and soul, if you prefer a less gimmicky angle. Although, I’m not sure that’s really much less gimmicky.

Objectives for January:

Eat/Body: Drink more water. It’s a simple goal, but something I’ve allowed to lose importance in my day to day life. And I’m pushing 30 here folks, so hydration is going to be key to long term skin care (aka, any chance I have to not become shriveled up and creepy looking given that I refuse to stay out of the sun). I should also probably try to take a vitamin every day, but perhaps I’ll push this one to February. One thing at a time.

Pray/Soul: I pray. A lot. But mostly for things I want/need, like the safety and happiness of my family, especially Baby. I have allowed my prayers to become repetitive, though, so my goal in this area for January is to be more present in prayer and not simply repeat the same thing day after day. And to maybe throw in a bit more gratitude instead of just being so whiny all the time.

Love/Mind: [At first, I wasn’t really sure that the Love/Mind categories really matched up well, and I considered separating them into two different goals. But, let’s face it, I’m already pushing it with 3 different objectives. Add in a fourth, and you can pretty much just stamp FAIL onto this whole shebang.]

So, Love/Mind: Here, I’m going to focus on Baby. My plan is to use my MIND to remember that her defiance and boundary pushing and other frustrating ways are all a means to learn, and grow, and develop. When she spits/throws food in my face at every single meal, she is watching my reaction and learning from it. When she continues to explore something after I’ve told her NO, I have to use my MIND and remember to still enforce the boundary but acknowledge/praise her persistence/endurance/curiosity/etc.

And, if I can channel the powers of my MIND and remember to do these things, then LOVE will flow easily and endlessly.

Right? Or am I delusional?

Who knows? It all sounds pretty on paper. I’ll let you know next month how it all plays out ….

And, if you’ve stuck with me through all of my ramblings today, [a heartfelt thanks to you!] I apologize for completely contradicting myself. As it turns out, I guess I do make resolutions after all …