A Mom's Silly Heart Break - Baby Steps in High Heels

Thursday, August 18, 2011

A Mom's Silly Heart Break

Usually Husband drops Baby off at day care. It’s so hard for me to leave her. You’d think I would be used to it by now … we’ve been doing this for over a year and a half.

But it hasn’t really gotten any easier for me. There is sorrow for missing out on parts of her day. There is guilt, of course. There is the crushing heart break every time her little face twists into a frown and she starts to cry for me to stay.

I thought it was bad she was younger, but it’s even more torturous now that she has words. Oh, how they cut like a knife.

It’s funny, though, because today brought on a whole new kind of heart break. And, silly though it may be, I’d be lying if I tried to say it didn’t hurt just as much to watch her stand by our door this morning, begging to go to school. Begging to leave me and go play with her friends. Begging to go (“Now, mama, now! Let’s go!”) for her music class this morning.

Oh, how it cut like a knife.

3 comments:

  1. Ahh, it doesn't get easier! But you just have to remind yourself that they are independent because you have taught them to be self confident and strong! And that's our job!

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  2. I felt that same way when Marlee went from only wanting me to only wanting Daddy. :)

    It's def. a double edge sward: you're happy they are happy, but sad they don't need you as much any more. :)

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  3. I can so relate! Sending my oldest to kindergarten is killing me!

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