Does she know? - Baby Steps in High Heels

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Does she know?

Husband says I’m paranoid. Or, at best, I’m just reading too much into things.

But I think she knows. I don’t know how, exactly, but I think she does.

Sure, oscillating temper tantrums and bouts of being overly clingy are a major part of toddlerhood.

As is finding new words and phrases daily.

“No, mommy, STAY!”

“Sit on bottom, mommy. DON’T MOVE!”

“Mommy, mommy … NO GO BYE-BYEEEEEEEEE!”

Of course, I am sensitive to these words. I know I am leaving for another trip soon.

I know it will be a long trip this time. Four full days and nights.

Just before Christmas.

Two time zones away, with little to no opportunities to Skype or even talk on the phone.

I know I will be gone, but I wonder …

Does she know?

Linking up with Shell at Things I Can't Say for Pour Your Heart Out (not sure why the button won't work??)


  1. Aw, maybe she senses your anxiety.

    Hang in there, though- you'll be back with her in no time.

    Did you try the button from the sidebar? The ones in the posts were whacked with the switch to wordpress, but the one in the sidebar should be okay. And a text link is always fine, too. ;)

  2. I'm sure she kinda knows. I can't imagine the hurt it probably causes your heart when she says those hurts my heart when Marlee says things like that when I am going to be gone for an hour or two.

  3. That's got to be hard, I'm sure like Shell said, she senses your anxiety.

  4. i just went back to work least night for the first time since baby girl was born. im cranky today and it was hard.
    maybe she does know, but thats ok.

  5. I agree with Shell. It's funny how we talk about just wanting a break from our kids sometimes, but it's actually really hard to be separated from them. Maybe you could leave her little notes around the house to find or have your husband set one up in a fun place each day you're gone? You could even record her a little message, maybe even reading a bedtime story.